Not sure yet. 

I have, however come to the decision that the reason I cannot find a job I really like is because that I need to just work for myself.  I am going to become my own boss....of what I have no idea.

I am going to create my own job.

I am turning off the negative part of my brain.  I am erasing all words that will defuse that notion.  I will not allow myself to give excuses why I cannot contribute something unique to the world.  I am taking a risk, and I am not entirely sure that it is a risk taken out of fear of finding real work, or an honest assesment of this being what I want to do.  Either way it will I imagine I will get my answer soon.

If you are reading this and your first reaction is something like the following:

A) Um...hello?  Mid-life crisis anyone?

His poor wife.

C) Everybody has a stupid idea every now and then.  Why should John be any different?

D) It won't work.

E) Of course he would want to do something like this, who wouldn't.  John just may need to grow up.

F) C is not for cookie.  It is for crazy. 

E) I give it two weeks before he is working at Dillards.

 

If any of those are your first reaction to my go into business for myself plan don't feel bad.  I have had each of those thoughts is a real profound and frightening way.  I am now going to make sure I don't think of any of those things for a bit.  I am going to take a journey into the sunny world of happy-thoughts on the sugar coated lollypop ferry.  I am going to dance with positive thinking bunnies in a field of...well..ok...you get the idea.  I am by nature a negative person.  I look for reasons things cannot work.  What a horrible way to live.  I am going to put that DVD on pause while I explore this new view on vocation.

I am posting this because this puts pressure on me.  If I were to just reflect on this in the silence of my heart I would probably not to it.  It would be easy to let this idea go....unlike now...'cause as soon as I post this I am accountable to these typed out words.

This will work.

Um......when you think about it...pray.